Perspective

A year ago. wow. i can still imagine samantha mahoneys face. laughing and miserable...clutching to me like a saftey raft..though i didnt realize it ..but i was the one who needed her. One year ago...sam aronow..innocent in naive ignorance. she smiled , not knwing how well she would know me. One year ago..I stood , unappreaciative of all I had...in capable of seeing what good fortune i had. Forward one year to now. i sit and feel sour ...my stomach feels sour..my mind feels sour..I feel sour. but in those breif moments of exhilaration...I can open my mouth and breath air that actually dosnt hurt.


I do love life so Maybe i am being to critcal and dramatic. But... i think that drama queens are just thinkers. us thinkers delve so deep into a situation , it is almost impossible to resurface. And im gasping for air.